Lamer tak update. Sengal giler.

Mungkin sebab kemalasan, atau tak se-enthusiastic lagi untuk memblog.

Mungkin kedua-duanya sekali.

Previous post, I was starting as O&G HO, in a week's time I'll rejoin the Medical department, this time as an MO.

Takut giler.

Yeah, I did ask for it, but it still scares the heck out of me.

Fresh after finishing Medicine as a houseman, I could confidently say that I'd be able to handle the bread-and-butter cases. Uncontrolled DM? Check. Hypertensive crisis? Check. Asthma? Check. Pneumonia? Check. Procedures? Central lines, peritoneal dialysis? Done, and done. No problem.

But that was two rotations ago. More than half a year. 8 months, to be exact. Sekarang ni nak baca ECG pun lembap sikit. Ye la, asyik tengok CTG jek. Nak order ECG utk patient pun selalu tersasul cakap CTG.

Nevertheless, I AM looking forward to become an MO. No more 7 am start for me! I'll start at 8!! Muahahahahahahah!

Poyo ah.

My weekends are mine if I'm not on-call. Gonna need lots of free weekends from now on. Several projects on tow. All very exciting.

During my last few days in the department, I'm in charge of the Gynae ward. It's like the forgotten ward of O&G. We have to do night rounds, and have to wait until the on-call MO comes to see the patients. Most of the time Gynae ward is the last one. Which means your other colleagues from other wards would've gone back earlier, and there you are, sitting at the counter, looking at the clock while the MO rushed into the OT for an emergency Caesarean section.

It's SO not fun, I tell you.

I love Obstetrics, it's one of the most enjoyable rotation I've had (out of three, ha ha) but I find Gynae not as stimulating.

And because of that, I can't wait to finish (although I'm sorry to leave the department, as a whole).

Neways, apart from work, there are other things to look forward to. Don't want to jump the gun by saying too much, but let's just say that I'm *almost* officially off the shelf.

Makes me sound like a grocery item. Bleah.

Oh yes, I'm aglow with happiness. Really.

Hi. Just random thoughts

* Yes, I'm alive.
* Am in O&G department now. So far, so good..
* 4 months to finish housemanship. Yay!
* David Cook won American Idol 7. For once, America got it right!
* Can't wait for next month. Waiting for a silvery-blue object on wheels. Super duper excited! Finally my very own car!
* As Yana puts it, there are lots of things under the rug. Waiting for the time to sweep them clean (just hope I don't chicken out).
* You know what, I'm starting to believe that change IS good
* Or maybe I'm fooling myself again
* Either way I'm preparing myself. Come what may. I don't care. Well actually, I do. Either way I'll be damned if I let it get the better of me.
* Surprisingly, I'm happy. Most of the time. Although 'TIRED' is the operative word.
* It's surprising how you know someone so little after so long. Or maybe all this time you're just fooling yourself.
* Sometimes I do the things I do for the sake of self-preservation. Nothing against you, but I have to start looking after me. I'm tired of being considerate all the time.
* Gosh, this entry's going downhill. Let's think happy thoughts.
* I'm gonna watch David Cook again. =)

Song in my head

Escapism

I can listen to this song over and over again....

Strange, isn't it?...

....that you can hide unhappiness, even from yourself. You immerse yourself into whatever you're doing for the day, working non-stop until you have no time to sit down and think. After a while, you actually think that you're all right with everything...

...until you stumble upon a picture, a song, or a note..something that acts as a reminder.

Then it starts to feel like the world is crashing down.

Ignorance IS bliss. I prefer my former state of oblivion.

It's 30 mins past midnight and I'm still listening/watching David Cook.

I need help.

Just a short note

I know I more or less made a declaration that I won't be watching anymore American Idol after Melinda Doolittle was eliminated last season, but I just have to say that I LOVE DAVID COOK!

America, please get it right just this once.

Michael Johns wasn't too bad either, unfortunately he was eliminated.

Almost ending my surgical rotation, planning to take my remaining holidays for this rotation, will be blogging more then (hopefully)....

In the meantime, enjoy David Cook's version of "Hello"

Watching the world go by....

Hari ini adalah hari saya menyibukkan diri baca pasal update orang lain di laman Friendster dan Facebook. This is what I discovered:

2 friends got engaged
2 *possibly* engaged to each other (if my deductions are correct)
1 friend is expecting a baby
1 friend had a miscarriage
Quite a few have moved to other countries, looking for green (doesn't have to be greener) pastures

Being here in Kuala Pilah, I sometimes feel that I'm stuck in another world. Barely having time to read newspapers (honestly, kalau bom meletup pun mesti x perasan - unless there are patients admitted to Hosp. K. Pilah) I'm 'cut off from civilization', so to speak.

Reading about my friends make me feel as if time is passing by quickly; and I'm just a bystander watching from the sidelines.

Strange feeling, I can tell you.

Makes one feel left out, somehow.

No, it doesn't mean that I want to go in the same direction as they are going, it just feels like life's happening to them, and mine's just......static.

I need some excitement, quick. Somebody get me a ticket to an exotic vacation somewhere.

Damn..all this idleness is not helping.

February's post

My 3^rd week as a Surgical HO

So far, so good. Life’s not as hectic as when I was doing Medical rotation. But somehow, I miss the chaos of being a Medical HO. I guess it’s because I was just starting to get really comfortable doing what I was doing, and then it was time to move on.

Otherwise, I’m appreciating the relaxed lifestyle I’m having right now. We start early, but work so far hasn’t been too bad. Now I have time to sit down and catch up on my reading (the gaps in my knowledge are appalling). Weekends are mine unless I’m on call. I actually have time to go to the cinema, and interact with family members again.

Life’s good, alhamdulillah..

You know what would be absolutely divine? A trip somewhere, anywhere (to a place I’ve never gone before, that is). I see pictures of my friends on Friendster & Facebook on holidays around the world, makes me wish I went somewhere too. Just a week’s escape from normal daily routine. *sigh* Wishful thinking, I know. Oh well…

*Blinks* it's 2008 already??

2007 ended almost a week ago.

Happy new year to everyone (if it's not too late).

Haven't blogged for quite some time, been busy with you-know-what (work la..), and when I have off days I'm just too excited not to be working to blog (hahaha).

Read the messages some of you posted. So sorry I didn't reply to them, especially to Justin (if you're reading this). I've seen you down the corridors of Kuala Pilah Hospital so I guess your questions would've been answered by now. Hope you're finding working life okay. If you think life's good at HKP, wait until you get into the Medical department (hehe).

10 days to go before I join another department. Either O&G or Surgery. Haven't found out which one yet (never found the time to go to the office to check).

My 4 months' rotation in Medicine is almost coming to an end. I wanna say something shocking, although I realise after this revelation some people may advise me to get my brain scanned, or seek psychiatric treatment. You ready? Here it is :

I ACTUALLY ENJOY MY MEDICAL ROTATION.

Think I'm crazy, huh? Yeah, I think so too.

I'm gonna miss being a medical houseman. Although I won't miss the crazy on-call nights. And it seems to me that all these patients wait until the day (AND night..especially at night..or very early morning) when I'm on-call to come to hospital. My colleagues have good on-calls, there was one time when there were only TWO admissions for that day (jealous betul...I'm still jealous..). Moi? During my last on call I slept for only half an hour. Had eleven admissions that night,one after another. Good thing I had a good on-call partner who helped me out. Once I was just so tired that I put my pen and stethoscope down, declared to the staff nurse that I SIMPLY had to sleep or go bonkers.

Kena mandi bunga nih...

Otherwise, I'm quite happy. My MO told me that my boss praised me the other day. Being a houseman can make you feel overworked and underappreciated, so any good word (especially from your boss) goes a very long way. That actually keeps me going. (This is what we call 'positive reinforcement'. To all bosses/future bosses out there, remember that your subordinates need a positive word or two once in a while).

Work's not without its funny moments though. I had a schizophrenic patient in the ward who had a crush on me. He was always hanging around the ward counter whenever I was there doing my work. And I actually had a marriage proposal from him! Of course I said no, and then he declared that he'd remain single for the rest of his life.

It was kinda funny, but I became a bit wary of him after that.

Darn. I must be slipping, only crazy men want me.

Any sane takers out there??

Just kidding.

There was another funny incident involving another schizophrenic patient, but it's kinda embarassing so I won't share it here (but if you're curious, ask me personally and I'll tell you).

Well, 2007 has passed, welcome 2008! As the years before, I won't make any new year resolutions since it's simply a waste of time. I'd forget my resolutions the next day. Let's just wish for a good year, and may we improve ourselves in many ways.