Friday, September 28, 2007

It's been almost two weeks of working life, there's only one way to describe it:

*Penat gilerrrrrr sehhh!!!!!!!*

Hospital Kuala Pilah's not that big, but there are 3 medical wards (Yup, I'm doing my medical posting first) and I happen to be on the one that's always 'active' (meaning that it accepts patients everyday, rain or shine, contrary to the other 2 wards where they take turns being 'active' and 'passive').

It's been tiring, it's been fun. There are good times, there are bad times. There are times when you get scolded by the consultants, there are times when you joke with them. Same goes for the nurses...actually the nurses are wonderful on the ward..they've been the ones who watched over me.

So far, so good, alhamdulillah.

Someone named 'Anonymous' posted a comment in my previous entry entitled 'Posting', and this is my reply to you, whoever you are:

You said that you're 'selling [your]self extremely short working with people who were formerly [your] schoolmates and had very poor medical education in countries like Ukraine etc,and they were very substandard students in school'....let me tell you this, just because you go to a renowned medical school, where ever it is does not make you a good doctor by default. Just because I graduated from the UK, from the place where I brushed shoulders with the authors of 'Kumar and Clark' does not make me the best houseman that ever graced Hospital Kuala Pilah. Being a doctor means that you're a student for life, and learning does not stop the moment you graduate from medical school.

And seriously, you don't need to be an excellent student to be a doctor. Brains is not the only requirement, you need to be able to work hard and have interest in people. The people whom you think were substandard may one day be renowned doctors in various fields. One thing I learned is that it really doesn't matter who or how you were in school, and it doesn't define your future. It's how you build yourself up afterwards.

I'm sorry if I sound too critical, but one word of advice : don't come back to Malaysia with the mindset that everything here is 'substandard', be it people or how things are done. It's just different, we'd have to adapt, but it's true no matter where you go. True, there's a lot of bureaucracy here, people who are your superior in rank sometimes act like they're at the top of the social strata. Just give them no mind. Coming back with the misconception that you're better than your 'substandard' peers will cause a lot of damage, all of them to yourself. To put it mildly, you'd be 'fed to the dogs'.

So far, I've not regretted my decision to come back.

But hey, that's just me saying. And I just finished my 2 weeks 'tagging' period. Starting my first on-call tomorrow. Let's see if I change my mind afterwards.




Saturday, September 15, 2007

On being blooming stupid

Waaaaaarrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhhh!

I AM SUCH AN IDIOT!!

Make that an idiot and a half.

Why didn't I go?????

Been mentally cursing myself the whole day (considering it's fasting month, I didn't use the entire selection in the vocabulary, but you'd be surprised how many words were still left to be used)

Is there a hole somewhere I can crawl into and hang myself upside-down?

I really need to have my head examined.

Don't think I can forgive myself for this one.

Addendum 3.27 pm : How DOES one crawl into a hole and hang one's self? Yeah...I wondered myself after re-reading this entry. Explains my state of mind currently.

Today's SUCH a Jonah Day...

Friday, September 14, 2007

Posting

Dr. Azhani Akmar binti Azhar
No K/P : ******-**-****
(Alamat)

............

2. Tuan/Puan telah ditempatkan di Hospital Tuanku Ampuan Najihah untuk menjalani Latihan Siswazah di bawah ......... ..... selama satu (1) tahun mulai dari tarikh lapor diri dan satu (1) tahun lagi untuk menjalani "Obligatory Posting" ......... Sila lapor diri kepada Pengarah Kesihatan Negeri Sembilan pada 16 September jam 9.00 pagi

***(16 September?? Bukan hari Ahad ke tu? Sape keje? I'll report hari Isnin lah..)



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For anyone who wonders where that is, the hospital is in Kuala Pilah. In my application form I put only one option : Hospital Tuanku Jaafar (i.e. Seremban GH) and left the other two options blank. Quite foolhardy on my part, silap2 haribulan diorang hantar pergi Borneo (nasib baik tak, alhamdulillah).

To be honest, I don't mind the fact that I didn't get where I wanted originally. True, Kuala Pilah is abt 45 mins drive from home, and the road to K.Pilah through Bukit Putus isn't for the faint-hearted (2 lane woooo...dahla berkelok-kelok...kalah F1 punya circuit) but strangely enough I'm perfectly happy. The hospital pun takla besar sangat, looks kinda nice. Mak isn't too happy the fact that I'm starting waktu bulan puasa but hey, insyaAllah I'll survive.

Let's see if my optimism lasts.

Wish me luck! Your prayers are also appreciated.

p/s : They're building a highway to Kuala Pilah, bypassing Bukit Putus. That should cut down travelling time by half. Unfortunately the construction of the highway is still in its early stages. Perhaps I should send an appeal letter to Dato' Seri Samy Vellu to speed things up.



Thursday, September 06, 2007

Without Love (OST Hairspray) - I LOVE THIS SONG!!!!!!!!!!

The movie 'Hairspray' is coming to Malaysia soon. Kinda late if you ask me, they've been playing it in the UK for quite sometime already. Anyways, WATCH THIS MOVIE!! In my opinion it's the best musical-turned-movie so far. All the songs are so catchy you won't be able to resist humming the tunes.

The plot outline is as follows (I'm too lazy to do it myself, so I nicked it from IMDB):

"Tracy Turnblad, an overweight teenager with all the right moves, is obsessed with the Corny Collins Show. Every day after school, she and her best friend Penny run home to watch the show and drool over the hot Link Larkin, much to Tracy's mother Edna's dismay. After one of the stars of the show leaves, Corny Collins holds auditions to see who will be the next person on the Corny Collins show. With all of the help of her friend Seaweed, Tracy makes it on the show, angering the evil dance queen Amber Von Tussle and her mother Velma. Tracy then decides that it's not fair that the black kids can only dance on the Corny Collins Show once a month, and with the help of Seaweed, Link, Penny, Motormouth Maybelle, her father and Edna, she's going to integrate the show.....without denting her 'do!"

If that doesn't convince you, consider this : John Travolta dressed as a woman.

Well, what are you waiting for?

The soundtrack's great, been playing the song below on my computer over and over and over again.


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~~Without Love~~
[Zac Efron, Nikki Blonsky, Elijah Kelly, Amanda Bynes]


Link
Once I was a selfish fool
Who never understood
I never looked inside myself
Though on the outside, I looked good!

Then we met and you made me
The man I am today
Tracy, I'm in love with you
No matter what you weigh
'Cause...

Link & Tracy
Without love
Life is like the seasons with
No summer
Without love
Life is rock 'n' roll without
A drummer

Tracy, I'll be yours forever
'Cause I never wanna be
Without love
Tracy, never set me free
No, I ain't lyin'
Never set me free, Tracy,
No, no, no!!

Seaweed
Living in the ghetto
Black is everywhere you go
Who'd have thought I'd love a girl
Whose skin as white as winter's snow

Penny
In my ivory tower
Life was just a hostess snack
But now I've tasted chocolate
And I'm never going back

Penny, Seaweed & Ensemble
'Cause without love

Seaweed
Life is like a beat that you can't follow

Penny, Seaweed & Ensemble
Without love

Penny
Life is Doris Day at the Apollo

Penny, Seaweed & Ensemble
Darling, I'll be yours forever
'Cause I never wanna be
Without love

Seaweed
So darling, never set me free
No!

Penny & Seaweed
I'm yours forever
Never set me free

Ensemble
No, no, no!

Link
If I'm left without my baby doll
I don't know what I'll do

Tracy
Link, I've got to break out
So that I can get my hands on you

Seaweed
And girl, if I can't touch you
Now I'm gonna lose control

Penny
Seaweed, you're my black white knight
I've found my blue-eyed soul

Seaweed & Ensemble
Sweet freedom is our goal

Link
Trace, I wanna kiss ya!

Tracy
Let me out at the next toll!

All
Without love

Seaweed
Life is like a prom
that won't invite us

All
Without love

Link
Life's getting my big break
and laryngitis

All
Without love

Penny
Life's a '45'
when you can't buy it

All
Without love

Tracy
Life is like my mother
on a diet

All
Like a week that's only Mondays
Only ice cream, never sundaes
Like a circle with no center
Like a door marked "do not enter!"
Darling, I'll be yours forever
'Cause I never wanna be...

Without love

Penny & Link
Yes now you've captured me

Ensemble
Without love

Seaweed & Tracy
I surrender happily

Ensemble
Without love

Penny
Oh seaweed
Never set me free

Penny & Seaweed
No, no, no

Tracy & Link
No, I ain't lyin'

Penny & Seaweed
Never set me free

All
No, no, no
No, I dont wanna live without

Penny
Love, love, love

Link
Yeah, yeah, yeah

All
Darling, you had best believe me,
Never leave me
without love!