Lamer tak update. Sengal giler.

Mungkin sebab kemalasan, atau tak se-enthusiastic lagi untuk memblog.

Mungkin kedua-duanya sekali.

Previous post, I was starting as O&G HO, in a week's time I'll rejoin the Medical department, this time as an MO.

Takut giler.

Yeah, I did ask for it, but it still scares the heck out of me.

Fresh after finishing Medicine as a houseman, I could confidently say that I'd be able to handle the bread-and-butter cases. Uncontrolled DM? Check. Hypertensive crisis? Check. Asthma? Check. Pneumonia? Check. Procedures? Central lines, peritoneal dialysis? Done, and done. No problem.

But that was two rotations ago. More than half a year. 8 months, to be exact. Sekarang ni nak baca ECG pun lembap sikit. Ye la, asyik tengok CTG jek. Nak order ECG utk patient pun selalu tersasul cakap CTG.

Nevertheless, I AM looking forward to become an MO. No more 7 am start for me! I'll start at 8!! Muahahahahahahah!

Poyo ah.

My weekends are mine if I'm not on-call. Gonna need lots of free weekends from now on. Several projects on tow. All very exciting.

During my last few days in the department, I'm in charge of the Gynae ward. It's like the forgotten ward of O&G. We have to do night rounds, and have to wait until the on-call MO comes to see the patients. Most of the time Gynae ward is the last one. Which means your other colleagues from other wards would've gone back earlier, and there you are, sitting at the counter, looking at the clock while the MO rushed into the OT for an emergency Caesarean section.

It's SO not fun, I tell you.

I love Obstetrics, it's one of the most enjoyable rotation I've had (out of three, ha ha) but I find Gynae not as stimulating.

And because of that, I can't wait to finish (although I'm sorry to leave the department, as a whole).

Neways, apart from work, there are other things to look forward to. Don't want to jump the gun by saying too much, but let's just say that I'm *almost* officially off the shelf.

Makes me sound like a grocery item. Bleah.

Oh yes, I'm aglow with happiness. Really.

Hi. Just random thoughts

* Yes, I'm alive.
* Am in O&G department now. So far, so good..
* 4 months to finish housemanship. Yay!
* David Cook won American Idol 7. For once, America got it right!
* Can't wait for next month. Waiting for a silvery-blue object on wheels. Super duper excited! Finally my very own car!
* As Yana puts it, there are lots of things under the rug. Waiting for the time to sweep them clean (just hope I don't chicken out).
* You know what, I'm starting to believe that change IS good
* Or maybe I'm fooling myself again
* Either way I'm preparing myself. Come what may. I don't care. Well actually, I do. Either way I'll be damned if I let it get the better of me.
* Surprisingly, I'm happy. Most of the time. Although 'TIRED' is the operative word.
* It's surprising how you know someone so little after so long. Or maybe all this time you're just fooling yourself.
* Sometimes I do the things I do for the sake of self-preservation. Nothing against you, but I have to start looking after me. I'm tired of being considerate all the time.
* Gosh, this entry's going downhill. Let's think happy thoughts.
* I'm gonna watch David Cook again. =)

Song in my head

Escapism

I can listen to this song over and over again....

Strange, isn't it?...

....that you can hide unhappiness, even from yourself. You immerse yourself into whatever you're doing for the day, working non-stop until you have no time to sit down and think. After a while, you actually think that you're all right with everything...

...until you stumble upon a picture, a song, or a note..something that acts as a reminder.

Then it starts to feel like the world is crashing down.

Ignorance IS bliss. I prefer my former state of oblivion.

It's 30 mins past midnight and I'm still listening/watching David Cook.

I need help.

Just a short note

I know I more or less made a declaration that I won't be watching anymore American Idol after Melinda Doolittle was eliminated last season, but I just have to say that I LOVE DAVID COOK!

America, please get it right just this once.

Michael Johns wasn't too bad either, unfortunately he was eliminated.

Almost ending my surgical rotation, planning to take my remaining holidays for this rotation, will be blogging more then (hopefully)....

In the meantime, enjoy David Cook's version of "Hello"